Monday, February 16, 2015

Coco...from Siam with love and.. Flaws.

Pets. Family Pets. Family.

Having pets is nice when they're young and full of life. They color our childhood with unconditional love.

But, I despise the part that we know there will come a day where we have to bury them...

So this is that day...
I feel like a child all over again.

But Coco story is more than just a pet. He was a pure bred from a family line of winners...unfortunately he had a severe ear infections which costed him a cochlear, losing sense of balance. To sum it up, the vet didn't expect him to live long nor has any expectations to be adopted. But he look so adorable with that permanent side tilt gaze in the cage (that adorable tilt is a balance defect actually)

I didn't care, it was love at first sight.

So..we adopted him. The doctor charged us minimal fee of his ops, meds and vaccines of rm300... 

I remembered my dad/mom exclaimed in disbelief that I spent their money on a ' disabled cat ' when I came back home..

Caring for him wasn't easy. He tought us patience. We even thought of getting him a helmet as he kept banging into things. Imagine not having sense of balance...as a cat... That means a lot of jumping accidents, bumping into your food n water bowl. Lotsa bleeding. Lotsa wailing as he is a very loud cat.

Basically, he had a 'Not gonna last long'  stamp on his forehead right from the start. He didn't have it easy.

But he drudge on and kept fighting....
He finally outlived his siblings...
He outlived his playmate Lady...

Every time the original owner/vet met him, he would say, "Wah, he is still alive!"

He is one tough cat...

He tought me... Few things...

People can label, judge you...
Even give you sure early death sentence...
But...

There's nothing love and patience can't fix...

#2... Faith...
Something you cannot see nor comprehend...but you do it.
You leap and jump into unknown result..
That 'unknown' is an amazing experience, that has no idea where it'll take you... Overthink, and you may just missed the ride of your life 

#3 Planning is only a guideline...

It's ok to have a slightly crooked lines sometimes...

It doesn't have to be perfect. So is our loved ones...

Huge part of love is actually accepting flaws and imperfections.

If you keep searching for perfect love...it'll be a long, empty heartsick journey...

Coco, you beat the odds...
And you lived with lotsa love around you..
Rest in peace now..old buddy. 

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Mommy's worries never ends

There's probably a lot of grammar mistake in my title.

But it has nothing to do with my English teacher's capability. She played an integral part of my school life..
Being inspired and not afraid to dream.
I miss her.

But what's really on my mind now...at 230am is....

my children...

The ones who's at school...
Discovering the art of socializing...
hierarchy...bully...friends for life...daydreaming

And teachers.

Someone who is there for the essence of being a teacher, hopefully inspiring my kids..
At least one will do...alhamdulillah.

Or someone who doesn't want to be a teacher, but doesn't really qualify to do anything else....

Insulted?

But u know it is true....

My dad was a teacher. Even my sister... And a lot of my friends too. U know when people do things out of passion....

I may lay sleepless thinking these things which is beyond my control..or I could break my back to send them to private schools...

Or I could pray for their best..

The end of nothing really...
When u really think about it.

The kids will be ok...as long as they're happy and healthy.

Their world doesn't end at the blue gate...

It starts outside it....

Friday, January 23, 2015

Thankful

Assalamualaikum.

Its 2015...

2014 zoomed by so fast..so engulfed with stuff to do...

And I sit here today, feeling bogged down with Jan, Feb Mac schedule and to do list...wrong things...
I already started the day negatively....

Sh*t...

Scrolled my phones photo album...

Saw this lovely pic taken by...someone.
N it had no one in it....

Not a soul.

I saw the simplicity...n freedom it embodies...

Actually what I already have...why am I looking so far?

And I realized I forgot to be.....

thankful...